I haven't written for a while. Work has been ridiculously full-on and when I'm with Sam, I haven't had my camera on me to take decent pictures. He just gets more and more fun. I thought he charged around before but he has taken it to a whole new level now. We went to Heathrow to meet Jo's mum today and as soon as we put him down he was off. He will run up to total strangers, look inquisitively at them and then break into a huge, giggly smile. It's so cute.
I haven't been feeling 100% recently which means I haven't been the best dad I can be. I think it's just exaustion from work. I read an article last week about middle class parents spending less time with their kids than working class parents who tend to work more 9-5 and can get home for proper evenings with their kids. On friday I literally crawled into bed and passed out when I got back. I felt terrible but I just shut down. I keep thinking I am about to lose my voice too which is a bit worrying (especially if you have hypocondriac tendencies like I do : ).
I am wondering whether years of shouting an smoking in clubs and at raves has weakened my vocal cords or if I have nodules on them or something.
I signed off 12 holidays for people at work last week and i was thinking 'what about me?' when do Jo and I who have the most pressurised positions in the company get to go away? There never seems to be a good time. We are in the unique position of both of us being massively busy all the time. I think we need a break every 3-4months, especially now it's winter. I would really like to take a bit of a sabatical at the beginning of next year, step back and take stock of things. I think I need it.
