Reading back over my last post, I realise how negative it sounds. Part of me wants to remove it but I'm not going to. If I did then i would be sanitising the blog and it wouldn't be an accurate reflection of the emotional rollercoaster that both Jo and I are on at the moment. We are new parents, experiencing new highs and new lows. Some of the lows we'll handle with ease, others we'll struggle with. There's no point in pretending otherwise.
As if to prove the point, the last 48 hours have been great and I feel 100% more postive about both Sam and life in general.
I'm sure it's work that is causing the problems. I am really not enjoying it at all at the moment and it's tricky to just turn the stress off as soon as I get home. But give it 24 hours away from the office and all the crap starts to fade away and I can properly enjoy my amazing family.
And they are truely amazing.
After having a great night on Friday, we both woke up feeling good about things. Meeting up with the other couples from NCT only added to that feeling. Everyone had their babies with them and there are really some cute ones but every time I looked at Sam I kept thinking how amazing he is. He was completely relaxed all afternoon and even in a smiley mood that evening when we got him home. When he looks at you and he smiles and he gurgled like he did then, it is just incredible.
I should note now though that he has already learnt not to smile for the camera (see above). I have tried all sorts of covert photographic manoeuvres to catch him off guard but he always sees me and shoots me the 'and what exactly do you think you're doing' look.
Today we visited some old friends down in Fleet. They have a 2 year old son. Matt and Jo were there with their daughter Ruby too. It was great - so relaxed even with all of us running around after our respective kids and even though there was a chorus of crying from various bedrooms as we tried to eat Sunday roast.
That's what it is all about really isn't it? Friends, family, love and good times. It's just a shame that work has to break up the fun.
